In the words of Carrie Underwood, sometimes you just need a Smoke break. And that couldn’t ring more true in my life these days. I have 2 small children, work a full time job, cook, clean and still find time to be a wife. Although I wouldn’t change it for the world, I’m still figuring out how to find balance it all of it. Ideally, I would love to be a better wife… Because without my husband, the rest wouldn’t be there. He provides a calmness to my chaos. He loves me even when I’m grumpy from a rough day of work. He loves me when I’m broken out, hair in a bun and in my sweat pants looking like a sexy beast. 

How I long to be a better wife. To be a better mother. My kids bring out my very best, yet my very worst. Nobody told me how HARD this job is. Yet I wouldn’t change it. I wouldn’t change the spaghetti on the walls, the pee on the floor, or the dirty car that can never get clean. Because with it, comes belly laughs, hugs and wet kisses and the unconditional love my children give me. How did I deserve this amazingness?

I ask for grace on my hardest days where I feel inadequate. I ask for forgiveness on those days when I’m not my best self. And above all, I ask for love always, because without LOVE none of this would exist.

Chai